Little woke up at 5:51 this morning.
As I slipped into my robe to go tend to her, I cursed having to get up before the sunrise when I was all snug in my bed. Even though I’m not a “sleep in” kinda gal.
As I slipped her back into her crib, I considered going back to bed. Even though I wouldn’t fall back asleep and the Bigs would be waking up within the hour anyway.
As I slipped down the hall to make some coffee, I shook my head at the fact that I am up before the sunrise. Even though I like the time to myself.
My church put out a challenge in the first week of January 2011. It was the B90X (a play on the P90X fitness program). We were given a pamphlet with the entire New Testament broken down into easy to manage sections. The goal was to read the entire New Testament in 90 days.
I never finished.
BUT, I have let go of my own disappointment in myself because I know God could really give a hoot if I finished reading the Bible within a certain amount of time. I have children to tend to. I have dishes to wash. I have dinner to make. I have a kid to get to school, a bottom (or two) to wipe, and a shower to take. Besides, I didn’t want to rush through, just trying to make a goal. I wanted to live it. I wanted to breathe The Word. I wanted to slow down and hear what was being said. My whole life, I’ve been reading the Bible (well, having it read to me once a week during church while I fiddled, chatted, and doodled), but I’ve never really taken to heart what it meant for MY life. I never accepted it as The Living Word.
This morning, I read Proverbs 31. It wasn’t part of the B90X plan. It wasn’t going to get me closer to my goal, but it was on my heart, that after hearing about “The Proverbs 31 Woman” so often, I should read it. Today. For whatever reason.
Epilogue: The Wife of Noble Character
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
That’s how The Living Word works. You’ll be reading and then *BAM*. You read something that
makes you think lets you know God is right there with you.
“15 She gets up while it is still night;”
It may not be a very important part of the story, but it was exactly what I needed, given the conversation I had had with myself just a few minute earlier.
However, as I read it, I realized, as close as I come to being a Proverbs 31 Woman, I am still a ways off. So, as we start this new year, I take to heart what The Holy Spirit has shown me.
I will strive to have more compassion in 2012. For my children. For my friends. For my dogs. For the less fortunate. For humankind.